No Justice. No Peace.

Mhm. Where do I even begin?

Outraged. Enraged. Pissed. Angry. Mentally Exhausting. Crushing. Heated. Passionate. Ambivalence.

Those are just several words of how I'm feeling. Let me start by saying this-

If your son is black, you should be outraged.

If your father is black, you should be outraged.

If your brother is black, you should be outraged.

If your boyfriend is black, you should be outraged.

If your friends are black, you should be outraged.

Really quick. If you are not black and you don't see why this is an issue... why can’t you, regardless of your race, not see how huge of an issue this is? How can you not understand how horrible and unjustifiable this is? I don't know how to explain to you that you should care about other people.

You know, some parents fear having “the talk” with their children. The one about the birds and the bees. But what I fear? What Black parents fear? "The talk" is different for us. It terrifies me to the core. How do I teach my future children... How do I teach my unborn future sons/daughters to be Black in the world we live in? How will I prepare them?

There are so many things that come to play with this matter. I'm not a mother yet, but when I do become one, I have to be aware of all the dangers in this world for just simply existing. I have to teach them about wearing their hoods on their heads. I have to teach them about having their hands in their pockets. I have to teach them that you can't look at a person a certain way. I have to teach them what to do with their hands when they are pulled over. I have to teach them to always speak with respect (I mean I would do this regardless, but ya'll know what I mean).

When a child is about 8 years old, what do you expect them to do at that age? You expect them to play outside without a care in the world. You expect them to go to school and return home. You expect them to enjoy being a kid. You shouldn't have to teach them about what to do when you get pulled over. You shouldn't have to teach them about wearing their hoods. And to act like color has nothing to do with it? You're naive. I will never understand people who justify racism. When I become a mother, I will have to pray that my child never becomes a hashtag.

I have been seeing people say "violence is never the answer." If violence is never the answer, then why do the police and government use it so much? You will hear cops say, “I shot them because I feared for my life." But here's the tea. When black people are fearing their own lives and they protect themselves, it’s deemed “threatening"... Make it make sense America. Make it make sense. People didn't appreciate the peaceful protest when Colin Kaepernick was kneeling. Do you appreciate it now?

Replace George Floyd with a dog in that video of the police officer pressing his knee into George's neck for 8 minutes and see the difference in reaction from most white people. They arrested thousands of people to avoid arresting four cops. Remember that. Also remember, they didn't arrest the man who murdered George Floyd because they saw the video. They arrested him because WE saw the video.

I get it. It's a scary time right now. I am scared. I am agitated. I am worried. I am nervous. And on top of all of this going on, WE’RE IN THE MIDDLE OF A PANDEMIC.

With that being said, if you've been out in a big crowd protesting the past several days, consider self quarantining for 14 days. Your actions after the protest can help save lives too.

If you are a Black mother, I pray for you.

If you are a Black father, I pray for you.

If you are raising a Black son, I pray for you.

If you are raising a Black daughter, I pray for you.

If you are Black, I am praying for you.